Thread:Okaminarutofan999/@comment-30094524-20171013045011

I doubt you'll read or look at this, but I'm putting my thoughts down to be more civil. I know my apologies became empty. I know I made mistakes. I know you feel differently about me and we can't be friends. For the most part I had no right to become depressed out of the blue, but in the past few months I tried to be there and help. I don't know why you feel this way, but I'll respect your decision to distance yourself from me. I was frustrated because I saw my world falling apart. I don't blame you. I blame myself for letting this happen in the first place. I'm not begging to still be friends. Clearly with the way things are now it isn't possible. But I will express my regrets for what happened. I was never trying to smother you. I wasn't trying to be clingy. I just wanted a friend. And for awhile, I felt less alone thanks to you. I know you probably hate me, but I want to remember the good times and not look back badly at this. Anger drove me to do stupid things, but with a more level head I look back at this friendship as the happiest time of my life, and I regret ruining it. One last thing, please take care of your health. I've worried a long time about the way things have been, and while I couldn't do much I wanted to offer as much support as I could, but eventually my words became useless with time. We all have problems. We're only human. Please accept these things and be there for friends and family when they're in need. I don't know if it was only me, but ignoring friends will get you nowhere in life. Like I said, it's a two way street. I'm not saying this in a bad way, rather as something I learned from experience. Burning relationships with the people you love isn't fulfilling. Like this. I never thought I'd be in this situation but I hurt someone I was close to. All that I ask is we don't hate each other. I considered you one of my best friends before. And While that's changed for you, please remember how things used to be. Life is complicated, that's just a part of growing up. I'd rather you not end up a depressed mess like me. Live your life to the fullest. I know you'll get out of there and make something out of it if you try.  