Thread:Okaminarutofan999/@comment-38165011-20190303001614

I'm not here for anything hostile. I'm only going to say to the best of my ability that I regret what I did here and on other places because it was uncalled for. In case you don't receive what I sent on reddit, I'm going to more or less say the same thing here. That there's nothing I can do, there are no words I can say to fully apologize for what I said. It's probably a waste to even try, and I'm sure you doubt I'm sincere at all about it. Yes, I know we've been here before. And I know that it seems empty. But it's only because our problems were never truly solved. There was a barrier built between us after it happened the first time and it never went down. I should have been smart enough to realize that things had changed and that it wasn't going to be the same. I also should have been able to trust you and not be paranoid. That's what caused this in the first place. I just didn't listen enough to you to understand why you couldn't fully trust me again. Even when we were speaking again I knew I was still blocked in certain places. I knew that we didn't have a friendship of any kind for maybe the past year. It's something that seemed impossible to create again and maybe it is. I only had my best intentions to help, but that doesn't mean anything when all I did was act worse towards you. I couldn't help but feel paranoid because I always felt like I was being pushed away. Yes, maybe I was clingy at one time, but I don't believe I was recently. I tried to give you space, but it didn't seem like that was working either. I did what I could but it didn't seem like it was enough. Maybe that was because of the trust issues, maybe that was because we didn't feel comfortable around each other, I don't know really. I didn't treat you fairly and give you a chance to explain yourself. So for that I deserved what happened. I doubt you ever want to speak to me at all again, but if there is anything I can do to talk these things through I would do that. But realistically I understand that the time for that is gone. Wiki comments probably isn't the best place for this, but I'm putting it here because I have no other alternative. Also this was where the problem started to begin with so it would only be fair to apologize for what I said here as well. That never mattered much to me anyway, it was just something to complain about. It was more symbolic if anything. From your perspective I should have been able to tell that you had no reason to care for me anymore. Why you did for so long is beyond me. You were right to just shut me out I guess. And if that's the way it stays, that's fine. I'm sure your life is much better without me in it. In the past year I have done nothing good for you and I don't expect anything good to be done for me if things stagnate like that. It always felt more like an unreachable goal to ever be friends again after that first argument because something changed forever. Something always kept things from being good again. It felt more like I was talking to someone I didn't know after that and I'm sure thats because you had no reason to be open with me anymore or trust me. I was too stupid to not just accept it and move on. Words just can't erase those things, and things are at a point of no return. They already had been I'm sure of it. I expect nothing else, I just wanted to say this. Goodbye.. 